More on Love's "is"s and "is not"s

Figured its about time I picked up where I left off.

Love is a form of emotional connection.
As far as I try to, it can't be fully described.
You'll know its Love when it is ^_^

Love is to give, and not ask for anything in return.
To willingly contribute in silence, or even in intended anonymity, to someone's life, that is what lasting love is about, isn't it?
愿意付出而不求回报; easy to say, but difficult to achieve.

And because of that, Love is not utilitarian.
In utilitarian ideology of fair exchange, one will only give when an absolute fair return is guaranteed.
It is about considering the costs and benefits, about weighing the pros and cons rationally, before making a "logical" decision.
Yet, this goes against the entire notion of Love as abovementioned.
As such, this cont-benefit thing just doesn't work for love.

However, Love is not an absolute commitment.
Many of times, with the influence of social stereotypes and media, we think of love only in the form of "girlfriends" and "boyfriends".
Yet, we forgot that love is not only that, nor is it all about that.
How can such a precious connection be defined by a name and just a name,
about the petty things people to just to satisfy a certain role mostly predetermined by society?
To Love is to feel, not to do.

Moreover, Love is not a tool for exploitation.
Contempt is the proven top cause for divorce in society, for putting oneself about another upsets this intricate balance.
Using love as a leverage, as a blackmail, is doomed to lead to broken hearts and painful tears.
There is no "I need to because I love you", only "I want to because I love you".

Love is not defined by distances, for it stems from the heart and not by the senses.
Love is to think of each other in the darkest hours, to 同甘共苦,
because it is having someone you can hold on to, to give you solace in times of need.
Love is to feel empty when someone is not around, and full again when that person returns.

Love is knowing that it is Love ^_^

A LEVELS IS OVER! TIME TO PLAY :D

Dedicated to an Emo Friend

Welcome to my blog :)
Dedicated to you and her.
May this be the last time you'll emo over it ^_^

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"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts, instead."

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday, it was the time of our lives.
You and me together nothing gets better.
We could have had it all, rolling in the deep.

But there's a side, to you that I never knew...

I let it fall, my heart.
The scars of your love reminds me of us,
they keep me thinking that we almost had it all.
You had my heart and soul your hands,
but you played it to the beat.
I set fire to the rain...

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back, or hide from the lights.

I heard that you've settled down.
I heard that your dreams came through.
Even now, when we're already over,
I can't help myself from looking for you.
I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regrets and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have know how bitter sweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best, for you too.

I'll remember you said, "Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts, instead."

Adapted from Rolling in the Deep, Set Fire to the Rain, Someone Like You - Adele

Hmm...

Hmm, come to think of it, I actually surprised myself.
To think of all the things I'm willing to accept, to do, and to not do.
Its not that I don't care - in fact I really do - but it just doesn't seem to get to me?
Am I really that "大量"?

Maybe its because I've been through so much,
to the point that I can actually put myself in the shoes of others and 体谅 what they do.
I mean, sometimes when you truly understand the rationale,
the thought process behind seemingly "bad" or "evil" acts, you see the act for its worth.
You choose to forgive, to smile it off, to compromise even.

Maybe not mistakes per se, but different decisions

But has it led me too far?
Am I...too understanding?
I don't know...

Raining...

I like it better when the sun is up.
But when the rain starts pouring, it gets messy...

Pray that the sun will shine again...

Connection

If I had to pick one most important thing about life, it will be connection.

No matter who we associate with, it is important for us to find that "connection",
that certain understanding, that mutual trust.

Yet, connection can be such a queer thing...

Hollowness...

I think its more fear than anything else.
My eyes, are they saying anything right now?
I shall just type the random words that come to mind, since I really don't know what to say.

心酸，hollow, stoning, unknown pain from somewhere, heart beating extremely fast, small actions have large impacts, somewhere but nowhere, maybe seeing tears has a part to play, can't get it out of my head, don't know what is what, how much do I mean to the world?, its not what people do but what they don't do that defines them, it can't be helped, I can only do so much, maybe I put my heart too deep into something..., side effects of my instincts..., scratching of violin strings sound so sad..., how did my eyes actually start burning...?, when the sms came?..., I shouldn't cry, I really shouldn't..., why this me?..., how to stop myself from emoing like this?, it didn't hurt when i found out on my own, but saying it is just..., whats that "thing"?..., I don't know, I really don't know why anymore...

Still emotionally unstable after all these while...
My own composition continues to corrode...