2 weeks Army Life

Its been quite long since i blogged properly, so i shall rush out a post before some crazy PT, while I have time :)

Life in army wasn't as tough as I thought (the exercising is though), probably because my platoon has nice sergants and commanders :)

Going through all the exercising and aclimatisation, I had many instances to think about what drives me and keeps me going when I'm pushed to my limits.
Its like the epiphanies when you are all dead tired, aching arms and legs, giddy and half-blurry vision, when you can only keep one thing in your mind to keep you going straight.

Haha, I nobody knows what I'm taling about so far, probably :P
My bunkmates will know though; clinging onto their families, friends and people they know.
Yet, we all have one fear, one that overrides every other concern about surviving in the army; to be forgotten by the rest if the outside world.
Being stranded in an offshore island surrounded by guys, behind all the tough faces, we are all a little afraid.

People in the outside world have no idea, how its like to be afraid to return to your home, to those you love, as a stranger...
Never before has it occured, that one day we might be detached from our normal lifes...

Will we come back again?

Dedicated

Haha blur blur people wun understand what it means of me being able to post on blogger :P
I suppose it all comes down to this song :)
A thousand years more...I will ^_^

The Quest for Happiness

Humans are queer creatures. 

Many live life for power, for love, for god, glory and gold.

Upon inspection, these are but avenues to achieve the ultimate goal of life, Happiness.

Yet, when Happiness is imminent, when we can live in bliss and joy, do Humans accept it readily?

There is this Fear, of loss that follows gain; 

there is this Suspicion, of hidden undercurrents and masked complications;

there is this Rejection, of being spoilt and over-reliant. 

Its like a hunt, the fun is the sought for game, 

but when the meat is placed in front of you, the fun is no more.

Its just too easy, to accept, but too hard, to have missed all the fun.

We all have a bit of sadism in us, 

to experience the Tug-of-war between Sadness and Joy, 

to feel the Uncertainty of Insecurity, 

to be Unsure, to be Double-guessing, to be Imagining.

Maybe it would've been better, if Happiness was never given to us in the first place.

Maybe it would've been easier, if we got Hurt more often and received much less.

Maybe it would've been Happier, if we learnt how to Treasure the little things amidst all the sadness.

Happiness, Grab hold to it or Lose it, 

for it either brings you Unlimited Blessings or Lifelong Regrets...

To the Loved...

心跳乱了节奏
没那麼简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那麼多的背叛
I think I love you

微微笑的看你
越是认真 就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯 仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做 但我比谁都真城
泡一杯苦茶 陪伴你到夜深
你知不知道 你总有一种能可爱的独特
让我充满勇气 抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美 像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖 你的体温
爱就是这样 'cause I miss you

不用等你开口先说我爱你
在那之前想对你说我愿意
你不必问 你也不必等
这一刻 就值得爱到永恒
我该如何让你明白我爱你
在那之后你点头说我愿意
想照顾你 想守护着你
这一刻 只想把你抱紧
喜欢你善良 陪你去逛逛
会偶尔吵架 吵累了说贴心的话
I'm falling for you

总是不安 只好强悍
一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头
爱就是这样 Now I need you
当你说要守护幸福 不打烊

没那麼简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
相爱没有那麼容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易 才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你
你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
想念燃烧个不停
我快只剩灰烬
你是我的呼吸

你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她这是每个人都知道啊
怎样做才会完美 像个男人
两个对的人奇迹就能发生

每当你出现我身旁 就感觉爱情的重量
我越在意越难衡量 就越放不下
越不去想就越是他
我们越看就像 不说也能了解对方
少了你世界就照不亮  你一定会再给我力量
在我的世界　都会有你守护肩膀

I think I love you *^_^*

P.s. Lines belong to random artists :)

To the HeartBroken...

曾几何时我成了局外人  而无言以对？

想用一杯latte把你灌醉。。。

直到爱消失你才懂得，

去珍惜身边每个 美好风景。

眼底星空，流星开始坠落。。。

他有种真命天子般的人 你还记得吗？

让你日夜忘不了的人 你还记得吗？

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解，

我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切。。。？

年少相知的人  即使过一辈子 也无法忘怀 。

有你的感动 我都记得啊！

我生日才过，你也忘了吧。。。

曾经我以为我自己会后悔，

不想爱得太多痴心绝对。

恍如隔世这个故事。。。

不顾一切的爱才算是爱 从来没有感慨一路走来，

但是重来却不能保证爱的成功或失败。。。

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部，

我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的。

总算还是能撑到现在。。。

所有的无奈 都只是无奈。。。

感情中专心的人容易被伤害。。。

心不曾被伤害 就能无瑕疵地爱，

分开也是另一种明白，

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开。。。

你们要快乐 要天长地久

你们没有错 爱是自由

走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔

你们要快乐 要紧紧牵手

你们不幸福 我会难过

成全最爱的人不是为了看着她

寂寞

P.s. All lines belong to 李圣杰, 品冠and黄小琥

那些年，的我

Haha, I bet nobody can understand this song and this movie better than me ^_^
To be contiued... :)

More on Love's "is"s and "is not"s

Figured its about time I picked up where I left off.

Love is a form of emotional connection.
As far as I try to, it can't be fully described.
You'll know its Love when it is ^_^

Love is to give, and not ask for anything in return.
To willingly contribute in silence, or even in intended anonymity, to someone's life, that is what lasting love is about, isn't it?
愿意付出而不求回报; easy to say, but difficult to achieve.

And because of that, Love is not utilitarian.
In utilitarian ideology of fair exchange, one will only give when an absolute fair return is guaranteed.
It is about considering the costs and benefits, about weighing the pros and cons rationally, before making a "logical" decision.
Yet, this goes against the entire notion of Love as abovementioned.
As such, this cont-benefit thing just doesn't work for love.

However, Love is not an absolute commitment.
Many of times, with the influence of social stereotypes and media, we think of love only in the form of "girlfriends" and "boyfriends".
Yet, we forgot that love is not only that, nor is it all about that.
How can such a precious connection be defined by a name and just a name,
about the petty things people to just to satisfy a certain role mostly predetermined by society?
To Love is to feel, not to do.

Moreover, Love is not a tool for exploitation.
Contempt is the proven top cause for divorce in society, for putting oneself about another upsets this intricate balance.
Using love as a leverage, as a blackmail, is doomed to lead to broken hearts and painful tears.
There is no "I need to because I love you", only "I want to because I love you".

Love is not defined by distances, for it stems from the heart and not by the senses.
Love is to think of each other in the darkest hours, to 同甘共苦,
because it is having someone you can hold on to, to give you solace in times of need.
Love is to feel empty when someone is not around, and full again when that person returns.

Love is knowing that it is Love ^_^